tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-39676917402645896302011-07-08T02:27:45.859-04:00Still here, now pregnant, working to redefine normal...IdleMindOfBethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03981681283810950397noreply@blogger.comBlogger3231100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3967691740264589630.post-31120719111482080882010-03-23T16:20:00.002-04:002010-03-23T16:26:26.398-04:00

Grumpy's mom passed away the day after I last published here. She was home, she had family with her, and she went as peacefully and painlessly as we could have hoped for under the circumstances. Since then, we've planned and attended/hosted the memorial service, and are working on the business of "getting on with life".Grump's is hanging in there, but - as anyone who either knows him, or has been

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First off, all things pregnancy related are still moving along swimmingly. I had a doctor appointment this morning, and Lil H and I are right on track in all measurable categories. I'm being kicked in all kinds of fun places as a regular occurrence, and sometimes I swear the lil sucker is trying to break out through my cervix. It's very strange - very strange indeed!Now, if you're not interested

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All seems to be going remarkably well in pregnancy land over here. We had the BIG ultrasound (results of which will be kept private until immediate family is made aware), but the important thing is that it was another showing that our Lil H is doing just lovely in there.I've been feeling movement consistently for a couple of weeks now. Its - bizarre. Very bizarre in deed. In the best possible

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First things first, since I know I've been HORRIBLE about updating... at 15.5 weeks, everything pregnancy related seems to be moving along swimmingly. Doc is happy, my stomach and appetite are getting there, and my jeans are not. I figure that's about all I can ask for that this point.I seem to be struggling again. Be it seasonal, situational, or my own fucked-up-edness, the depression seems to

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That's where the calendar says I'm at. 10 weeks pregnant. If that's not the most surreal thing I've ever typed here, I don't know what is.I'm discovering another problem with my infertility experience. I'm not suggesting this is a problem EVERYONE would encounter. Just one that I am, and I'm struggling with it. So, I figure if I am, someone else may, too. And this whole community thing is

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Lordy Lordy, this last month or so has been crazy! Bare (or is it bear?) with me while I sum up!My Mom, after a ridiculously UNspectacular fall (she missed the last step on the staircase into the basement) resulting in ridiculously spectacular injuries (7 breaks in 5 bones, including both ankles and a foot), is well on her way to recovery! She's down to 1 plaster cast and 1 cam-walker, has tossed

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Yes, I know, its been awhile - but.... I'm here now!This weeks Thankful list:The Grumps made the Dean's List!Mom is settled @ Grandma's with her 2 casted, broken ankles, and seems to be adjusting ok.I've gotten the opportunity to reconnect with an old friend, and now get to call him a good friend!It's fall! Cool breezes, clear blue skies, and pretty soon the leaves will be changing color.Almost

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If anyone out there needs lessons on how to help/manage their parents through a medical crisis, I think I'm about to be pretty damned qualified to give them!My Mom fell on Saturday, in an incredibly spectacular way. She was walking into the basement with a laundry basket, and thought she had reached the bottom step. Unfortunately, she was 1 step up. 2 broken ankles and a broken foot (7 fractures

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It's been awhile since you've seen the kittens, so I thought I'd give you a peek!They will be 6 months tomorrow, and are FREAKING HUGE! Bob, in the blue collar, with his little paw over his sister, is 8.2 lbs. Izzie, in the red collar, is 7.8 lbs.We've resigned ourselves to being the house with 2 20lb cats.They're trouble, and crazy energetic, and mischevious, and maddening... but they're sweet,

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It used to be a constant, dull ache that wasn't usually noticed, but never really went away, either. Silly me had gotten almost confident enough to say that for now, I've gotten beyond it.And then?Then that stupid bitch that is infertility sucker punched me in the gut.I was getting our dinner ready on Saturday when there was a knock at the door. It's back to school season, which - at least in our

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Serenity? Well, kind of, but that's not quite right...Sanity? Close, but again, not quite right...Simplicity! Ding ding ding, winner!This last trip up north solidified it for us. We are not urban, or even suburban, people. We crave the peace and quiet that comes with not being able to see (or hear!) your neighbors, and of being able to tend to a garden without worrying about breaking some

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Short, sweet, and to the point:This week I am thankful thatI AM ON VACATION!Gone camping with Grumps and the furkids! NO INTERNET ACCESS! Just us, good friends, good food, a few board/card games, some books, a local county fair, and a whole lotta booze!Back in town on Monday, but may not be back online until Wednesday!WAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

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There was a falling out, and this was a big one. It was over men, of course. She suddenly didn't like the choices I was making, and I was so wrapped up in my choices that I no longer had time for her. I'd like to say that I was torn up about it, inconsolable even, but that would be a lie. I was so wrapped up in the warm fuzzies of new love that I hardly noticed the loss of my best friend.Years

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I think we all had one... that first person you shared everything with. Bad grades, horrible crushes, silly giggling secrets shared in hushed tones while listening to Journey (I can't be the only one that came of age in the 90s that thought I was OH SO COOL to be listening to "old school Journey", can I? CAN I?).H wasn't my first best friend, if I'm to be honest. There were childhood friends

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I look around at my life today, and it's completely different from what it was a year ago. And I know there are many, MANY more major changes to come in the next 18-24 months.My marriage is better, stronger, happier than it's been in a while. It's not perfect (I'm not a believer in perfection anyway!), but it's good. Genuinely good.Our house, our health, our conversations, our connection - have

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so I missed last week, but I'm back at it again! This week, I'm thankful:That the patch seems to be working for me. I'm not a non-smoker yet, but I'm much MUCH closer than I've been in a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time!That Grumps and I are really and truly, for the first time since we've known each other, completely on the same page about our finances. It's wonderful to have a real partner in the fight

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You've lived in your new home for a few weeks now. You're finally unpacked and settled in. It's summertime, the weather is gorgeous, and you decide to throw yourself a housewarming party.You cut the grass, plant some flowers, and buy a screened in gazebo for the yard. You get the charcoal heating up on the barbecue, the beer chillin' in the cooler, and the ribs marinating in the sauce.You've

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When we moved into our house (almost 13 years ago!), it was a little bungalow in a quiet, well-kept, working class, family neighborhood. Today, it's still a little bungalow. Unfortunately, that's about the only similarity.The house across the street has sold 4 times, and is now rented by a mother, her 3 grown sons, a minor son, and a grandson (whose mother is clearly not involved). All 3 of the

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Yep, it's Thursday again! This week I'm thankful:That I get a 3 day weekend!That I get to see a cousin from out of town (that I see far too little) on Saturday!That I'll have the house to myself this evening (well, plus the animals... and from what Grumps has told me, the kittens are CUH-RAZY today!).That Grumps is STILL holding his 4.0!And that I am less than a month away from a long weekend of

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I've been thinking a lot lately about my infertility, my blog, my place in this community. I feel like I don't really have a place in the community right now. (And Lori, before you tell me to draw a bigger circle - keep reading!)If you're one of the few that has been following me regularly for the last year or so, you'll agree that very little I have written about in that time has dealt at all

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in *stolen* internet pics, because I was an idiot and forgot my camera! Friday night, we met up with some friends for dinner: Lafayette Coney Island, a Detroit Institution! And then we headed off to Comerica Park to see: And:Kid Rock, early on in his OVER 2 HOUR performance!!!!The concert kicked all kinds of ass, and we had a great time! I had to get out the Kid Rock CDs so that I can listen in

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Yep, it's Thursday again! Here's what I'm thankful for this time around:That the visit with our friends was FABULOUS! We had cocktails and fire and lots and LOTS of laughs!That my horrid end-of-last-year has provided me with insights that I would not otherwise have, and that I was recently able to share some of those insights with someone that really seems to need a little guidance. Whether they

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Grumps took the above picture one afternoon while doing homework in his office. The kids like to be near him, but can't seem to stay awake during naptime. Kaylah is the big reddish-brown one, Bob is the black blob above her, and Izzie is next to the black garbage can on the right side of her (you can spot Izzie's legs sticking out towards Kaylah).

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and waving at all of you out there in blogland!I'm still here, still bobbing along in my own little journey. Nothing too exciting or blog-worthy going on (or, at least not when a CERTAIN UNNAMED BLOGGING PROGRAM will actually allow me access to my account!), thus the ridiculous level of silence over here these days.To be honest, I've been struggling a bit this last week, as the 7th was 1 year

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Just need to reground myself in the things that are GOOD in my world right now. Since that was the entire purpose for starting this not-nearly-weekly theme, I suppose it's a good idea to publish another one of these, so here we go.This week, I'm thankful:That some of our best friends are coming up this weekend, and will be staying with us for a few days. It's been far too long, and I look forward

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I took a look last night at the spreadsheet I created to track our financial progress.Since I've started tracking, in Jan 2008, we have paid off 25% of our total debt!And remember, that's with me missing some work for a surgery, and Dad's illness and death, as well as Grumps being unemployed for the last 10 months.That right there gives me reason to WOOFUCKINGHOO!!!!

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This depression stuff - I'm learning - is freaking TRICKY!When I first started my meds (Zoloft, just a wee lil baby starter dose at that), I was feeling better. Surprisingly better. "WAHOOO!!! My prayers have been answered!" better.That better turned to a contentedness, that lulled me into a (clearly) false sense of security. It seems as though I blinked, and that satisfied, content, normal

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about a little girl young lady. (She's in those lovely "tween" years, and would be horrified at being called a "little girl".)Anywho, this young lady, who I shall call M, lives with her mother and father, in the same house they've been in for her entire life. She's very, very close to her mother. She helps with the housework, they do their homework together (Mom is a college student), mom is

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Don't get me wrong, this dip doesn't NOT qualify as healthy. BUT, it is CERTAINLY a whole lot healthier than its baked, cheese and fat laden (but oh so freaking tasty) counterpart.Ingredients:1 lb of hummus, flavored or plain... whatever makes ya happy (I like the garlic flavor myself)1 10oz box frozen chopped spinach, thawed and squeezed dry1 can artichoke hearts, diced4-8oz grated/shredded

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I feel like I should be working towards something, but instead, I'm just kind of... floating?The last several years have been spent fighting towards one goal or another... the wedding, trying to get pregnant, trying to stay married (that one was tough), trying to get our finances in order. Constantly working towards something that I had deemed "better" than where I was.Yes, there are things I

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Look at me, being almost, kinda-sorta regular about this here little feature... Who'd a thunk it?This week, I'm thankful:That Grumps and I didn't kill each other in the pretty much 10 solid days we just spent together (something to be proud of, too - believe me!)That a certain someone has kicked me in the ass to get the garden going! I just hope I'm not too horribly late with my seedlings! (

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The week off was EXACTLY what I needed. Grumps and I went north for a few days, we did some projects around the house, we spent time with friends and family, we played, we slept in, we loved on the fur kids.... it was a good break for me.The Grumps - he is The Genius! I married me a 4.0 student! WOOHOO! Semester 2 starts tomorrow...On the IF front... my cycles still seem to be fairly regular (30-

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As many of you already know, a few of our sisters out here in the ALI blogosphere are taking the fight to a broader audience. That's right folks, our girls are PUBLISHED! Check it out!Mel of Stirrup Queens fame has published Navigating the Land of If: Understanding Infertility and Exploring Your Options.Click Here to order your copy!About the book, in brief (as taken from the book website): "

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It's time again for another not very weekly installment of Thankful Thursdays! (If this thing ever catches on, I may need to find someone that can help me make one of those fancy html buttons for it.)This time around, I'm thankful:For the simple pleasure of watching the kittens play. They are each other's best friend and favorite toy!That I onlyhave 7.25 hours of work left before I have 10 DAYS

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I'm in this emotional space right now - very rut like - where nothing is really wrong, but nothing feels really right either. I know that there is lots of right in my life, and that there could - and has been - so much more wrong. I'm just having a hard time focusing on the "right" these days.I was talking to the Grumps about it this weekend. How incredibly proud I am of him for taking this leap,

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Apparently, she's decided to take a nap on our guest bed!When we first got the kittens, the only way we could tell them apart was that white patch of fur on Izzie's belly. It only took us a day to get the brilliant idea to buy them collars (non-matching), so that we knew who we were talking to without having to pick them up and look at a belly!

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A friend of mine has finally taken the plunge and opened up her Etsy shop!She's done lots of sewn items for her own kids, as well as for friends (I have my purple bed buddy (the microwave heating bag thingy) and I LOVE IT!).So far, she's only placed her pettiskirts (modeled below by her daughter) on the Etsy shop. Other sellers have similar items posted for $60+, but my friend is a bargain hunter

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I know that I had promised pics of the kittens, but I only have this one of Bob (yes, Bob... our vet discovered - after some inspection - that Cassie may prefer a non-Pink collar).It's taken some time, but Bob has clearly taken to his big sis, Kaylah.Will post more pics as soon as my lazy self gets them off the camera and on to the computer.

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Grumps and I have discovered a new type of therapy, and we may just try to market it...Kitten Therapy!Because really, it's damn near impossible to be depressed when you can watch 2 teeny tiny little furballs attacking their own tails.Pics to come as soon as we get some on something other than a cell phone, but our 2 new girls are Cassie and Izzie, and we're both head over heels in love with them!

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In yet another effort to reset my perspective, I'm going to attempt to resurrect my Thankful Thursdays posts. Here's what I'm Thankful for today:That it's April 16th, and tax season is OVER!That my boss was very generous with tax season bonuses this year. So generous in fact, that we'll be able to pay off the smallest of our remaining 4 debts (because I so desperately need to pay off something!)

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Saturday was hard - harder than I thought it would be. We cried, a lot. And not dainty-single-tear-rolling-down-the-cheek crying. Ugly-sobbing-choking-on-snot kind of crying. But, if you can't choke on your snot with the one you love.....Friday was a nice night. Paisano snuggled and purred with both of us, and spent some time looking out one of his favorite windows to watch the birds in the yard.

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Paisano snuggling with his sister, Kaylah.My sweet and sassy lil man is down to his last days.He's been through too much over the last few weeks. He had been responding to his chemo, but this week he backslid, a lot.We've made THE appointment for Saturday.It's time.And I hate it.

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I'm really, really working to find my happy place right now, but to be perfectly honest, I'm really fucking tired of feeling like life is shitting all over me.I know - believe me I know - that I AM blessed, and things could be - and are for so many people - so much worse than they are.But, let me briefly recap the last year for ya:April 2008: Surgery to remove more endometriosis. It went

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Well, not choices - more like choice.I saw Dr. Voodoo yesterday for my follow-up appointment to the HSG (which he again confirmed came back fine, no worries with my tubes).But then he asked if I wanted to give Clomid a try.UghYes, I do.But, no - I don't.I want kids, we want kids.But is now really the time?But, is there ever really a good time?OK, but now is a potentially BAD time.But, if we're

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I'm still here - still living this life of mine. There are things going on - lots of them - but nothing seems blog worthy.I don't have any news on the infertility front. My HSG was a couple of weeks ago, and it came back fine. My cycles seem to be "normal" since coming off the Lupron (ranging from 28 to 33 days), and I believe I'm ovulating regularly. Unfortunately, because of our current

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Over the last few weeks, the Grumps and I have taken on a bit of a role reversal from last year. During the summer and fall, I was completely overwhelmed with the responsibility of managing my Dad's care. I had the support of my sisters, and fortunately we all seemed to agree on almost every decision that was tossed our way. And we were able to reasonably discuss those handful of things that we

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I just realized that it's been 2 weeks since I posted here. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek!Grumpy's mom is in the hospital (has been since last Saturday), so our world has been a bit upside down lately. She's working on getting better, but has a lot of work ahead, and a big surgery to get through. I'll share more details as I'm able.In other news, I'm still working on my 101 in 1,001, if you're interested

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My appointment went well on Thursday. I had a nice chat with my GP, who quickly agreed that it was time to give some medication a try. One thing she said that really stuck with me...No one would dare withhold insulin from a diabetic. I don't see why the samedoesn't hold true for Serotonin.She wrote me a script for 50mg of Zoloft, with instructions to start the first few days at half a pill, just

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Or, maybe more appropriately - fighting my way out of the deep...I called my GP today for an appointment. When the receptionist asked why I was coming in I replied with, "I need to get on an anti-depressant.".So, for any of you that have been through this, do you have any advice for this appointment? Things to be aware of, questions to ask, anything?I know I'll be asked about symptoms. I've been

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Better than that, I think cousins night was a HUGE success! Everyone asked when we could do another one (which isn't going to be soon, unfortunately. trying to coordinate school breaks, work schedules, soccer, softball, band practice, etc etc etc is HARD!)I was able to let go of my need to control EVERYTHING, and we all just hung out, watched movies, played games, laughed, and generally enjoyed

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I have a blog!My apologies for the radio silence over the last week. There were the holidays, then I was sick for a couple of days, and then our internet was down for a couple of days, and blah blah blah Here I am!On the IF/TTC front, I ovulated at some point a few days before Christmas, though I'm not exactly sure when. I guess that means I'm in the 2ww, huh? I've decided that I won't test until

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That whole "non-smoker" thing? Out the window... I'm a bit sad that I was unable to stick with it again, but I know that I'll get there, either in my own time, or with the proper motivation (you know, like a pregnancy...)Grumps and I are gearing up for the holiday insanity. The next 4 days are jam packed with family obligations, visits with friends, and hopefully some fun and quiet time in there,

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D from Beautiful Mess loves my blog! To claim this most prestigious of prizes you have to answer a meme of sorts, this one with one word answers. You also have to pass it along to SEVEN other bloggers. And so:1. Where is your cell phone? Desk2. Where is your significant other? North3. Your hair color? Brown4. Your mother? controlling5. Your father? gone6. Your favorite thing? naps7. Your dream

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Hope, oh damn you Ms Hope!Why do you fuck with me so? WHY do you create all of these ridiculous fantasies in my normally grounded head? Why force me to realize that I could very well ovulate Christmas week (or even before)? Or that I could test on what would have been Dad's 80th birthday?I blame you for my body's resistance to my longtime friend and confidante, one Mr Basic Menthol Light. And now

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As I stumble my way through the emotional mess that is "the grieving process" (can't you just see those air quotes? argh!), I find my body has decided on its own - process.Apparently, my lady parts are remembering their purpose, and are working at getting the job done {read: OBVIOUS ovulation (for the first time evah) and raging (tho short) AF complete with a week! of PMS bitchyness (oh my poor

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Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, AcceptanceI'm learning that it's not a linear journey through the stages. You're not able to work your way through one, and "check it off the list". You can cover multiple stages at a time, or you can rest "comfortably" in one stage for days, weeks, months at a time.I'm learning that no matter how you explain it, or how much you share, some people just can't

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My Dad's gone.I'm 30 years old, and I don't have a Daddy anymore.And that? PISSES ME OFF!Never another Christmas breakfast with him.No more meals at his favorite little diner, where he has to introduce us to everyone.No more watching his face light up around babies, or dogs.And? And another person that is important to us, that our children will never know.I miss my Daddy.

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A meme to peel away the layers of you.Layer One:Name: BethBirth date: September 9Birthplace: Detroit suburbsCurrent Location: Detroit suburbsEye color: BrownHair Color: Brown (and grey)Height: 5'5 ishRighty or Lefty: RightyZodiac sign: VirgoLayer Two:Your Heritage: Italian and Heinz 57 (English, Scottish, Irish, French-Canadian, Native American)The shoes you wore today: black high-heeled

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Today is CD1! And I'm even pretty sure I ovulated last cycle! AND, assumng that's correct, I had a nice, respectable, 13 day lp!Wahoo!

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Oh how I've - missed you?Apparently my body is getting the hang of this whole "working reproductive system" thing. I'm fairly certain that I ovulated about 10 days ago, and the PMS-y hormonal RAGE kicked in full force last night (my poor saint of a husband), so I'm thinking AF should be arriving over the course of the next few days.After her departure, we'll spend the next cycle attempting to

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Emily thinks my Blog is Fabulous! THAT'S SO COOL!!!! I'd like to pass the Fabulousness on to:LoriLunaMelFlickaChicklet And my 5 Fabulous Addictions:Sex and the CityChristmas ornamentsTwitterCoffee with French Vanilla CreamBelgian Pool (this is what Grumpy's family has always called the game, but Google doesn't seem to know what that is. In the link I provided, our table is kind of a hybrid of

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I figured it was about damn time to resurrect Thankful Thursdays around here, and what better time to do that then Thanksgiving week? Yes, I am feeling awfully cliche` today, thanks for asking! So, here we go... All the things I'm currently thankful for:The Grumps: Even though he can push all my buttons (in all the wrong ways), after almost 12 years, he still manages to push all my buttons (in

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Could I actually be working my way to being comfortable - gasp - in my own skin?!?!I've spent a LOT of years putting on a show, for family, for friends, for co-workers, and for strangers. The Grumps knows ME, as do a handful of really trusted friends. But all too often, I find myself trying to be the version of me that _____ would want me to be.Worse... when I haven't had it in me to be that

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Our fantabulous and fearless leader Mel is at it again!It's that time of year when the stores put out the ornaments, the radio starts playing caroles, we all dread the 10 lbs we're about to gain, and Mel does the Creme de la Creme!The Best of the Adoption/Infertility/Loss Blogs of 2008 Are you on it? Yes:Oh you're SO FANTASTIC AND FABULOUS!!!No: ARGH! If you're part of the ALI (adoption/loss/

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Stolen from Sunday Stealing, who admits to having stolen it from Minnesota Mom.Have you ever…gone on a blind date? Never!skipped school? yepwatched someone die? Dadbeen to Canada? yep, Ontario (Windsor, Toronto, London)been to Mexico? yep, Cozumelbeen to Florida? yep, Orlando, Tampa, Miami (well, thru Miami)been on a plane? yepbeen lost? yepbeen on the opposite side of the country? yep, to San

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It's strange to me, but over the last few months, I've been so wrapped up in all that was Dad's illness and death, and all that was the struggles of an unemployed turned soon-to-be-first-time-college-student spouse, that I kind of forgot about the struggles of infertility.Sure, I was still going in for my every 4 weeks Lupron injection, and taking my estrogen (when I remembered). And I'd have my

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Your result for Are You a Jackie or a Marilyn? Or Someone Else? Mad Men-era Female Icon Quiz... You Are a Grace! You are a Grace -- "I need to understand the world." Graces have a need for knowledge and are introverted, curious, analytical, and insightful. How to Get Along with Me * Be independent, not clingy* Speak in a straightforward and brief manner* I need

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ok, I fully admit to stealing this idea from Nancy, but I really liked it, so I'm creating a list of my own. And, although we do have several in common, I know we don't have ALL the same readers.So, indulge me if you would, and tell me what YOU think is normal!Toothpaste: Squeeze from the middle or the bottom?If you're a bottom squeezer, do you roll up the tube as the paste gets used?How many

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Monday, October 27, 2008My phone rings at 5:30 in the morning. Startled awake, I have just enough time to think "this can't be good news" before I answer the call.Dad has fallen, again. The fifth time in about two weeks. But this fall brought along the first injury. Seems as though he pulled his catheter when he fell. Not all the way out, but enough that the nursing staff had to remove it and try

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Because I am desperately in need of some light-hearted blog content, I'm tagging myself, courtesy of Lori!1. Where is your cell phone? good question... had to go find it - was in my jacket pocket2. Where is your significant other? home3. Your hair color? Brown4. Your mother? difficult5. Your father? missed6. Your favorite thing? lazy days @ home7. Your dream last night? don't remember any8. Your

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back to work for the first time since move day (way back on October 24). Feels a little strange, but in a good way. If you excuse the DESPERATE desire for a freaking NAP this afternoon.There is lots that I want to write about here - Dad's last day, the service, all of the arrangements, the newly developed and VERY strong bond I have with my sisters - but all of that writing will require much more

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January 7, 1929 - October 27, 2008 More to come on the topic, I'm sure, as I process all of it. Know that I thank you - very much - for all of the kind words, thoughts, and prayers over the last few months.

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Another meme stolen from the fantabulous Jendeis!The Rules:A.) Go to Music Outfitters.B.) Enter the year you graduated from high school in the search function and get the list of 100 most popular songs of that year.C.) Bold the songs you like, strike through the ones you REALLY hate.1. Macarena (Bayside Boys Mix), Los Del Rio2. One Sweet Day, Mariah Carey and Boyz II Men3. Because You Loved Me,

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I found this one online a while back, and after making it a couple of times, I think I've played with it enough to share the original version, as well as my selections. The nice thing is that it's SUPER easy, and it MAKES A TON OF SOUP (I just about filled my 8 qt stock pot), and IT'S CHEAP!Ingredients:6 cans of any bean (I used 2 cans each Great Northern Beans, Kidney Beans, and Black Beans. I

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I have about seventy bajillion things on my to-do list right now. Some are incredibly time-sensitive (pack office before Friday's move), some are big picture important with slightly more flexible deadlines (decide if Dad moving in is an option that Grumps and I are willing to offer up) and some really don't even belong on the list right now (clean out closets {yeah, 'cause THAT is high on the

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Many apologies for the blog silence....I'm ok, Dad's the same, mother-in-law's surgery went well, work is nuts, and I have TOO MUCH GOING ON!I am still reading you all, and commenting when I have something to offer.Hope to return (with a real post) next week!Nice 250th post, huh?

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Here’s what you do:1) Copy this list into your blog or journal, including these instructions.2) Bold all the items you’ve eaten.3) Cross out any items that you would never consider eating.The Omnivore’s Hundred:1. Venison2. Nettle tea3. Huevos rancheros4. Steak tartare5. Crocodile6. Black pudding7. Cheese fondue8. Carp9. Borscht10. Baba ghanoush11. Calamari12. Pho13. PB&J sandwich14. Aloo gobi15.

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here again.Grump's Mom is in this morning to have her 2nd knee replacement. The first replacement spawned the post linked above, as well as this and this. (And probably others, but those were the ones I could find quickly.)We're all praying that this surgery goes much, MUCH more smoothly than the last one. If you have a moment to send out a prayer or good thought on her behalf, it'd be lovely!

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about depression?I've been thinking about it off & on for years, but pretty consistently over the last few months.I have a family history on both Mom & Dad's sides, and have all the textbook symptoms (short of suicidal thoughts).Part of me thinks it's time to suck it up and try to get some medicinal help. But the other part of me - the outrageously stubborn part - insists that I have a LOT going

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at least for now. I still want one - really really want one - but I have myself talked out of it for the time being.Just a quick update style post:I get my LAST Lupron injection today! WOO-FREAKIN-HOO!!!! And thank the Lord, because our new insurance wasn't going to cover it the same way (if at all). The amazing staff at Dr. N's office happened upon a sample from a drug rep, and its MINE ALL MINE

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from getting a puppy! PLEASE!We've been back & forth & back & forth about a bajillion freakin times about getting one (over the course of the last 4 years or so). Now would be a good time because the Grumps is home, and can do training. And really, we could both use a little extra wiggly cuteness & unconditional love in our world.BUT, more responsibility? Another (albeit inexpensive) mouth to

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I had a meeting at the hospital yesterday, with Dad's social worker, K, and the Palliative Care Coordinator, J.Dad is still very, very sick. His lungs will be an ongoing problem because of the COPD. His heart, although functioning normally now, will also need to be closely monitored because of his irregular heart beat and congestive heart failure. Because of the blood clot in his arm, he will

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Sorry for the blog silence... it's been a crazy couple of weeks.I'm still fighting whatever this viral funk is, but I am definitely feeling better. I worked a full day yesterday for the first time since last Monday! Needless to say, I'm SWAMPED!The office move is progressing nicely! We set a new record (especially for our-indecisive-selves) and had out carpet, paint, and Formica picked out in a

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Even though much of this week hasn't felt like it.Went to the doctor, who was concerned that I had either strep throat or mono (umm, 30 going on 13, perhaps?). Turns out it is neither. Just a nasty virus that has kicked my arse, and that I must let run its course. Fun.I'm drinking lots of clear fluids, and getting lots of rest (thank GAWD for the DVR, and my complete Sex & The City on DVD

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The Grumps is sick - has been for several weeks now. What started off as seasonal allergies turned into an upper respiratory thing. Fortunately, he's on the upswing, and I figure he'll be back to 100% by the end of the week.I'm sick. And I do mean sick. Sore throat (complete with lovely looking white bumps on my tonsils), stuffy head, slight cough, chest congestion, generally icky. Home from work

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My birthday was not my best day ever. Between work insanity, Dad stuff, the craziness going on at home, and the fact that I turned 30 (which really bothered me more than it should have)... well, let's be honest... I haven't had my best day ever in quite a while.So when I got home, I was ready to just go to bed. I was exhausted, and wanted to shut my head off for as long as I could.Until I walked

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Heh.Got a call yesterday from the social worker at Dad's rehab. There is a chance that his insurance (note to readers: avoid HAP Senior Plus LIKE THE PLAGUE!!! IT IS EVIL!!!!) will cut him off on Friday.Apparently, Dad has "plateaued" in therapy, and they don't like that. Let's ignore the fact that he's still fighting a liver infection (or possibly a new infection... his fever is back), he still

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*** I'm preempting this post with a disclaimer. See, I've been kicking around this list for a couple of months now, looooooooooooooong before the current unemployed spouse turned (hopefully) full time student situation (opportunity Beth, its an OPPORTUNITY!) presented itself. I've read back thru my list, and I really do think that these are all still things that are important. SO, I'm keeping it

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Thanks Cali, for this easy way to spew some blog content on a crazy Friday!The Name Game1.Your rock star name (first pet, current car): Rocky Stratus2.Your gangsta name (favorite ice cream flavor, favorite type of shoe): White Chocolate Raspberry Fudge Flip Flop (doesn't work too well, does it?)3.Your Native American name (favorite color, favorite animal): Purple Dog4.Your soap opera name (middle

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I know that I've missed at least one, if not two installments of Thankful Thursdays. I'm trying desperately to find some normal somewhere, so I guess I'll look here! This week, I'm thankful:Sis2 is coming into town next week. I look forward to seeing her again, and Dad ALWAYS improves when she's in town.Grumps & I are HEADED NORTH next week. We leave Thursday, will be back late on Sunday. It's a

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To GrumpyHappy Birthday To GrumpyHappy Birthday, Grumpiest Grumpster..Happy Birthday, To Grumpy!And, you know, should anyone feel so moved, please feel free to leave him birthday wishes in the comments. Then I can show him that my internet peeps are REAL, and I'm NOT INSANE when I'm hunched over my google reader @ 8am on a Saturday morning...

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After yesterday's horrid picture (thank you, Lori, for being so kind!), I felt compelled to post one that I'm more content with. As much as I'd love to post wedding pics for y'all (since they are my fav pics of me - EVER), I don't have Grump's permission for that. Although, now that I think about it, I didn't have Sis1 or Sis2's permission either. Oops.So, there you go, that's me.

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This was perfect moment #1 this past week. My sisters and I (me on the left... GAWD I look like KRAP). First time in a very long time - maybe even first time ever - that I've felt like I have sisters. Not a feeling I'm ready to let go of.And perfect moment #2 happened yesterday. Grumps & I were on our way to Grandma's birthday party, when we drove past an honest to goodness LEMONADE stand! Around

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I found this recipe on Frugal Upstate, and since I've been looking for an easy Crock Pot Mac & Cheese recipe, I thought I'd give this one a whirl. I'm glad I did!16 oz pasta, cooked and drained (I used penne rigate, but anything would be good. next time, shells! or rotini!)4 Cups Shredded Cheddar Cheese 1 Can (12 oz) Evaporated Milk 1 1/2 C milk 2 Eggs 2 TBS Flour 1 tsp salt 1/2 tsp Black PepperI

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You'd think that with everything going on in my world these days, infertility would have taken a back seat. SHOULD have taken a back seat.But, NOPE! That bitch is ALWAYS there, just beyond whatever is demanding front and center attention in my brain. And every now and then, it demands the spot light for itself.Still worried about Dad (his recovery, whether or not he'll ever get home, whether or

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Oh - where to begin?Dad is still in the rehab/nursing home. We (the 3 of us girls) had a care conference with the social worker, charge nurse, and occupational therapist on Tuesday morning. Apparently, Dad's not been all that cooperative with therapy, and it's getting to a point where he could be at risk for not getting insurance approval to stay there. If that happens, then we have to get him on

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Ever hit one of those points in life where planning seems like a lost cause? Or a luxury you can't afford? Yeah - I'm there.I had all of these BIG PLANS about how I was going to get the house in better shape, and make some major progress toward bill payment, and get signed up for another continuing ed class this fall, and and and. I even had a big ol' 101 in 1001 post all written, and scheduled

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I had some bananas in the house that I HAD to do something with. Rather than eat 3 of them today, or throw them out tomorrow, I went in search of a banana bread recipe. I found a LOT of them, and decided to combine a few. This is what I came up with, and - if I do say so myself - they're pretty darn good!1/2 C butter, softened1 C white sugar2 eggs3/4 C peanut butter (creamy or crunchy)3 bananas,

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http://play.typeracer.com/Play it! I'm Bbear1212.http://www.widro.com/throwpaper.htmlrandom office fun, altho probably not a good idea to play at work

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